Yesterday I found out that I became an aunt again! The younger brother of the two just had his first baby, and he is so adorable!!! When I got the pictures today there were so many different feelings that welled up inside of me– Excitement, disappointment, longing, frustration, joy, happiness, praise!! Talk about an emotional roller coaster…
my newest nephew Amari!!
I couldn’t help but stop for a minute and cry because now I really am the only one of my brothers and sister without children. There’s four of us all together and I’m the oldest and yet still no children; even though my heart yearns to be a mama! Like I said I cried for just a minute and then I stopped because I know that God has something for me (and my husband for that matter) to do first before our children arrive!
He has brought us out of so many different situations and has kept our quiver from being full because there are some things that we are gonna do and start and be apart of that will require all of our time. Not to say that anyone with kids or that my brothers and sisters will never be able to do anything great for God but I do know that once you have children your life changes, and the things that you wanted to do often get put on the back burner for the sake of what’s best for your family.
I was thinking about how my sister is struggling to provide yet she is with her kids loving on them, teaching them, showing them the proper way to do things, the proper way to act and respond to people… and I began to pray that my brother would be there for his baby.
my beautiful niece Jaylynn!!
He’s pursing his high school degree and looking for a job therefore he probably won’t be able to provide monetarily. BUT my prayer is that he would be in his baby’s life from beginning to end! That he would be there to change diapers, and feed him, and hold and caress and love on him, that he would develop that special father and son relationship that every little boy yearns for.
I then thought about my other brother and how he also has a little girl. And I began to think about the mother of his child and how young they both were better yet how young all of my siblings where and I began to praise the Lord because each and every person involved is generally the demographic that goes to get an abortion in situations like these… Yet they didn’t!!
I started to cry and praise God for saving my nieces and nephews from the enemy’s schemes to try to destroy them in their mother’s wombs. I began to speak blessings and life over them. I began to ask the Lord to touch each one of those children; my nieces and nephews and allow them to know that they were chosen to do something great for the Lord! Each one of them were saved by God and what a testimony that is!
my cutie-pie nephew Leland!
So even though this whole thing started with tears of sadness they quickly turned into tears of joy because my God was showing me just how REAL His love is!!! I mean His love is so real, it touched the lives of each person involved and showed them that they had a choice; one that may have gone against what everyone else was doing in their situation, one that may have ended in many late nights and early mornings, and less sleep and parties and alone time, BUT one that resulted in LIFE for their babies! God is showing my family that each child is a blessing from God and they are to be treasured. So what if they don’t have what everyone else has, all they really need is the love of family and to be shown the love of God!
P.S. I have one other niece but sadly no pictures BUT when I get them you all will know!