Stop underestimating God!

I just gotta say it because I am both guilty of it and awestruck by it… STOP UNDERESTIMATING GOD! He is in control of everything and He knows exactly what you need even before you know it or say it. God has been using these past few days to speak to me and I have realized that with every person I talk to about this new adventure He has got us on, everyone seems to say exactly what I need to hear at that exact moment. Every day it’s something different, and every day is a new struggle yet every day God is speaking to me. He is making sure that I am always aware that He hears my cries, pleas, prayers, thanks, and silent thoughts and that He will work all things together for my good. He is stirring something big in us and I can’t wait to find out what it is. For now I will stop underestimating God, I know I will probably have to remind myself of this later so feel free to remind me but for now I realize that He has got EVERYTHING under control and He loves showing us what He can do!

The Devil is a LIAR

I just finished watching Preacher’s Kid and I was so disgusted! It wasn’t  the acting that got me although it wasn’t top-notch; no instead it was the lie from the enemy that this beautiful woman of God believed! I know this is just a movie but it is still so true and it doesn’t just happen to the preacher’s kid, it happens to everyone! in the movie the PK  thought that she needed to go out into the world and live her life; which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but she forgot to take all the foundations she had growing up… where she was once on fire for the Lord she barely even knew His name by the end of it all.

Now of course it’s a movie so there was a happy ending and she came back to the Lord by the time the 90 minute movie was over and was married to her lifelong child hood friend and even got a record deal out of it… but like I said it was a movie!

I know that people come back to the Lord I also know that in most cases it takes way longer than 90 minutes and more has happened than just a few bumps and bruises along the way. Life happens, mistakes are made that can’t be taken back and most of all the person often feels like they’ve messed up so much that God can’t or won’t forgive them!

Well I am here to tell you that THE DEVIL IS A LIAR!!! John 10:10 says, “the thief comes ONLY to steal, kill and destroy.” Which simply means that the devil will try EVERYTHING to destroy you, whether it’s enticing you with money, alcohol, partying, immoral relationships, power, drugs whatever; he will do ALL he can to make sure you never know that you are forgiven and that the God of heaven and earth loves and cares for you in such a way that He sacrificed his own son so that you could spend eternity with Him instead of in hell with satan and all his lies!

I know this to be true because a good portion of this is my testimony! I was never a preacher’s kid, or a kid who grew up in church although I still knew right from wrong; no instead I was enticed by an immoral relationship that I thought was true love because the man I was with knew so much about me and was everything I’d ever dreamed of.

He was the only person I ever talked to about my dad, who in case you didn’t know spent most of my life in and out of prison. And I thought this man was sent by God to love me the way I’ve always wanted to be loved! And He did! This man did all the right things, and said all the right words, but at the end of the day he wasn’t mine. He was someone else’s husband and father.

For a long time I thought that what I had experienced was love at it’s finest. That I would never find anything better in my whole life. Of course this is not true because God has blessed me with a man who truly is MY KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR! Who loves me but loves the Lord even more.

But for so long I’d look back on that relationship and wonder what went wrong. At one point I realized that the man I once loved had become my idol and I put him before God so he had to go… which is true but as I grow deeper in the Lord, I see the bigger picture; this whole time I was dating a distraction sent to me by the devil himself to keep me from knowing my value, and how high and deep and wide the Lord loves me. The enemy didn’t want me to know about the hope and the future the Lord has for me; because it entails destroying his plots and schemes and revealing him to others!

No, No, the enemy tried to destroy me, he definitely stole from me and some thought that I’d kill myself after that relationship was over. BUT GOD came to my rescue and lavished me with His love and brought me out of darkness and despair into HIS MARVELOUS light! It makes me mad that the enemy used me like that! It makes me mad to know that I fell for the schemes of the enemy BUT GOD is opening my eyes to see the schemes of the enemy in a new way… and I know that it will be most effective for this new journey He is taking me on.

I know that there will be lives forever changed by this new insight of mine and no longer will I stand by and watch the enemy steal, kill and destroy people around me. Instead I will walk out the plans that the Lord has for me to change things and not be satisfied until all the world knows that the devil is a liar.

But most of all I want people to know how to combat his lies and end up not only victorious but triumphant in the Lord! His love IS real and He has sent me to bind up the broken-hearted and to set the captives free declaring that simple truth to all the world! I feel Him stirring up a new thing in me and I may not know everything but I know I’m ready to do it anyway!  To God be the Glory forever and ever AMEN!

Food for thought

So let me paint this picture for you all… It’s been a hot and humid almost summer day. I along with my coworkers eat lunch outside which leads me to sweat constantly and never really get cool enough. I am drinking water throughout the day. After work I get into my car which is like 10 degrees hotter because I didn’t leave my windows cracked or down… which leads me to sweat even more… by the time I get home I am very well aware that if nothing else I must change my shirt before my presentation that night.

I am at the youth group getting ready to give my presentation, I’m fine until I have to speak… there goes that sweat again… I’m talking and talking and talking and I am really noticing that I need some water, of course all I find is punch because it’s a youth group, and water is almost like a vegetable to them so you know it’s no where near their vicinity.

So once I am done with the presentation I am yearning for some water, I even contemplate calling my husband asking him to have a tall glass of water waiting just for me when I open the door to the house. I drive home park the car (of course) open the door and go straight to the fruity drink I left from dinner, well by then it taste like water but it’s got me in the mood for something sweet so instead of getting my nice tall glass of water I go and pour a nice big size helping of sweet punch and I am left unsatisfied, still in fact wanting the water that I should have gotten in the first place.

As I am looking into my empty glass highly disappointed I hear God whispering to me saying, ” See, that’s what people do to me all the time, they long for water to quench their thirst yet they settle for something less because it is more flavorful.”  I thought to myself wow, who would have thought that me being undisciplined and  going for punch instead of water would lead me to a revelation like this…

It was said so simply yet it was so true, many times people know they need Jesus but go a different way at the last-minute because something seemingly more fun distracts them. It doesn’t matter if the whole time people are telling them about how His love IS real or not, they don’t want to hear about it because there’s this lie that people believe that says if I love Jesus with all of my heart, soul, mind, and strength like it says to do in Mark 12:30, then I will never have any fun ever again!

It’s a sad lie that the enemy wants each person to believe so that he can continue to hold them captive from the freedom that knowing and loving God brings you. Don’t believe the lie instead believe the love that God is for you not against you Romans 8:31. And the next time you are yearning for some water don’t settle for punch, tea, coffee, or soda. Go for the one thing that is sure to quench your thirst: Water!

I finally heard what I needed to hear

Yesterday in church I finally heard something that I needed to hear… The pastor said God wont EVER tell you to do something that’s going AGAINST His word; its contradictory. Pretty simple huh? Yeah I know, but I needed to hear that for when I heard it that last little bit of spiderweb soul tie that I had hanging on me fell never to be seen again. I was freed by those words, at that very instant I saw it fall and I felt His peace and comfort come over me. I heard Him whisper to me, I am glad you finally see that what you once had wasn’t ever me!

I then realized that I had in fact been dancing with the devil all those years ago. The man I once held dear was in fact a distraction from the enemy himself. That explains two things: 1 why it hurt so bad to let him go in the first place and 2 why he never came back for me when he had the chance. Of course he wasn’t ever coming back for me, he got what he wanted and the enemy had me right where he wanted me, broken, used, distraught, having little to no self-worth, tattered and ashamed.

BUT GOD knew exactly where I was and how He was going to woo me into His arms forevermore! When that day came in Tabitha Smith’s living room on beers street on post after a spaghetti dinner and the purple book of course it hurt, in fact it ached so bad I couldn’t stop crying, I was fighting with God so scared to let that huge chunk of my life go for fear of the unknown and if I would ever love like that again… I see it now as the Lord doing surgery on my heart at that very moment but my heart was covered almost completely by the tentacles of a jelly fish. Some tentacles were longer than others and went deeper than I ever knew sucking the life out of me, pushing the talents, dreams, and gifts that God had given me further and further away from my heart so that I could never find them; as if they never even existed.

God knew all of this and He came to my rescue! He pulled and pulled until I knew what I had to do, not all at once and not fast like a band-aide on an already healed wound. No, He was gently lifting the tentacles off of my heart piece by piece, (I mean after all I had learned to live my life with that jellyfish attached to my heart and if He would have just taken it off instantly I might not have made it to where I am today), until He could get to a part that I’d let Him touch because it didn’t hurt that much or the pain was gone. He did that for quite some time and then He’d show me how to prevent it from coming back and how to get rid of the little pieces still stuck by reading His word, focusing only on Him, proclaiming His promises over me and going to Him in prayer multiple times a day. That’s been my life from that day back in 2007 until now.

Even though I have made enormous strides there was still always that lingering piece that last spiderweb of a soul tie hanging on for dear life occasionally trying to remind me of the person I use to be but yesterday that final piece that was stuck down deep finally came to the surface of my heart and fell under my feet in sweet victory! My heart was then washed by His blood and He told me, now go and love your husband the way I want you too.

Now let me clear something up, I love my husband dearly he truly is my Knight In Shining Armor whom I never thought I’d get but always wanted. But that little piece put a damper on how deep I could love him, so as soon as it fell and I was completely healed by God I was released to love him even deeper than before and I know that my love for him has been instantly taken to the next level. HIS love IS real because He is love and He would never tell you to do something that goes against His word; because it’s contradictory!

I have been told many times that He has anointed me to preach the good news and He has sent me to bind up the broken-hearted and to set the captives free and I believed it and still do! Now I know that I know that I know that this is exactly what I will be doing. It’s like the belief in my heart that’s been a little dormant has finally made it to my head and it will not be moved! I have been freed and I will freely give what has been given to me! HIS LOVE IS REAL and I am here to share it with the world!

Thank you Jesus for healing my heart and for rescuing me from the captivity that I was in for giving me a new life when I needed it to affect those you needed me to touch thank you Lord that you are calling me to another level of maturity I love you more and more each day please continue to speak to me and allow me to remain aware of your presence, In Jesus’ Name Amen!