Happy 4th Birthday Kobi

Unicorns! It was all about the unicorns this year with Kobi, and I was so excited to see how on-trend she was (read it made it easy to find items because they were in abundance and reasonably priced). So this year Kobi turned four and we had several celebrations: we went to the zoo a couple of weeks ago, we had dinner and ice cream with some great friends, met up with a past teacher of Kobi’s during the weekend, made sure to continue the pancake breakfast tradition, had a few friends over and she received a good amount of phone calls, texts, cards, video chats, and messages! She really did have a great day and was so excited and thankful for all of her gifts!

I’m exhausted I took the day off thinking I could knock out the set up and then rest, and that didn’t happen, but I’m not even mad or sad about it, because seeing her joy and smile and excitement at the surprises was all worth it!

To my daughter on her last day as a three year old…

Mom and daughter on couch
Kobi and I during her last day as a three-year-old.

My Dearest Katherine,

I am currently happy-sad that this is your last day as a three-year-old. It’s the only way I can explain the overwhelming emotion that is pulsing through my body. I’m trying to find the words, but all I can think of is what color combinations from the color monster book I could use to adequately describe how I am feeling, what would yellow and pink with a little blue be?

You are my treasure, but you are not in a treasure chest. You are an answered prayer, and the fact that you’ve been an answer to my prayer for almost four years now makes me marvel at our God! I’m so grateful to have you here with us, but with every year that’s passed, I’ve gotten sadder because you’ll never be that little again, and the way that you are currently fast-tracking your studies I feel like we have even less time with you before you are off in some distant land telling everyone you know about what Jesus has done for you!

You are so so full of life and energy and joy. Even though I am exhausted at night, I am also so thankful for the blessing you are to my world. The way you love your father is so sweet to watch. Your sense of justice is endearing! Thank you for always standing up for what’s right. I love that you have begun calling us out for the way that we speak to each other because there is the power of life or death in our tongues, and you remind us of that all the time.

This third year has been a great one! We moved to Miami, and it seems to have done us right. You love the letter church and your school, and you are even beginning to learn Spanish.

Thank you for being my Sunshine and for truly making me happy when skies are gray! You single-handedly saved Christmas for our family and have shown me what it means to make everyday moments into extraordinary memories! Thank you for loving people so well and for showing me that I can enjoy them too!

So tonight as you sleep, please know that although it hurts me to watch you grow, you are growing just the way Jesus wants you to grow and don’t ever shrink your growth thinking that will make me happy. I want to see you discover new and wonderful things that I have never known. You truly were created to do great things, and I want to see you accomplish them all! So, my love, I leave for just a little while, for the next letter will be on the first day you are four (in just a few short hours)!

Rest well my love,

Love, your mom!

Highlights of the Decade

In this decade I have gotten married and celebrated ten years of marriage, bought and sold a house, went on several mission trips to other countries, coached volleyball and track, birthed two babies, moved to three different states, finished my bachelors degree, obtained my Masters, helped in church plants, went to ministry schools, gained perspective and deeper faith, began therapy, and wrote a book. It’s been a definite adventure, and I have a holy anticipation for what the next decade will hold!

Merry Christmas, My Love

Katherine,

Merry Christmas, My Love! Your unadulterated joy has been my Christmas miracle. Thank you for loving Jesus and still being excited to see Santa, snow, and the bright lights all around you at every turn! Hearing you sing Christmas songs in English and Spanish has been a real treat, and listening to you read scripture has been a highlight of my life!

Thank you for showing me how great Christmas could be, I know you are going to miss it when it’s gone, but you can celebrate it all year long if you want! I’m glad I was able to find some matching pajamas for us, and I’m so happy we got to spend time together doing some of the things we enjoy doing.

Seeing Christmas through your eyes was so magical it blessed me to see your excitement. I love you, and I’ll always love celebrating Jesus’ Birthday with you!

Merry Christmas, My Love! When you read this, I hope you know that I love you and that you truly made my Christmas season merry and bright. You saved Christmas for me this year, and my prayer is that I would remember how magical this season is for you and embrace it entirely in the future.

~Love Mom

Where to go from here?

This month is over! There was so much stuff going on I really don’t know what my focus should be for the coming month. Trying to find the balance between work and life has been unattainable and will probably remain as such forever, but my goal is to be at least 60/40 at any given moment. Therapy is still much needed. I actually had fun doing our budget and keeping track of what was going on with our money at any given moment. It actually brought about a freedom I don’t think I’ve felt in a long time when it comes to money. It would be nice to add another date night into the budget as well as a few other line items. I want to start running again, and continue to be mindful of what I put into my body mainly dairy and processed sugars. I want to get to bed at a decent time again, instead of past midnight. I really want to refocus and readjust my goals going into the last 3 months of the year and I want to continue to go deep with Jesus and His word. I didn’t really narrow anything down, but I do know that I feel much better about going into this new month with a fresh perspective and newly outfitted goals! Thanks again for your support and encouragement!