Today did not go as planned. We wanted to go to the bike trail and the beach, but it rained all day. Luckily for me, I could get up and do some yoga right at 5:34 am when Kiwi Hannah was born. I took some time to cry, pray, and cry some more and move my body so that I could celebrate today!
Maybe the continual rain was Kiwi’s way of crying because she missed us just as much as we missed her. Perhaps it was her way of telling me she understands how much I love and miss her every day!
I don’t know, but we tried to make the most of it. We had donuts with Claire and Derek, got some errands done, had the most beautiful orchid delivered to us, ate cake, walked through the new place we’re renting, had dinner and dessert, then came home.
I’m thankful I made it this far, this many years, without Kiwi here on this earth. It’s a trauma I’m still healing from, one I know I won’t ever fully get over but instead be able to see it as a life event worth celebrating! I mean, Kiwi is living her best life with Jesus!
Happy sixth birthday, Kiwi! Mommy, Daddy, and Sissy love you!
I just found out that September is NICU Awareness Month! I had no clue until only a few weeks ago when I stumbled upon it. For me, the month of September has been one of mourning and profound sorrow. It has been one of dread and a countdown to the worst day of my life.
I’ve been blinded by grief for six years, the last four of which I’ve had our NICU baby here on this earth, and yet have never been aware enough to know about what else is going on during this time of year until now. I’m grateful for the healing that has taken place in my life to see this month as a time of remembrance, both of sorrow and strength, life, and life with Christ, and of course, all the love!
So today, I want to shout out my NICU baby, Ms. Katherine Obadiah Harding!
Kobi, Thank you for bringing me back to life! You are joy unspeakable and shine the light of Christ wherever you go! Thank you for loving people so well and showing me how to put others before ourselves so consistently! I love you and am so grateful for the rockstar that you are!! I am so excited to continue to see you grow into the woman God created you to be! You are brilliant and I love seeing you live life with such a wonder and so much energy!! I fully believe that you will do great and mighty things, because you’ve already touched so many lives in your short time on this earth! Keep being your confident, Jesus-loving, self and may you always believe in unicorns!!
Y’all I love social media! I know it can be crazy at times, but I love the connection it brings and the creativity that comes from the different platforms. I really do feel like working with social media is where I want to be when I decided to work outside the home again.
I love being able to see into the lives of the people I love who are far away, I love supporting my friends and their big or small businesses, I love the random polls and the videos of people dancing to the music I’ve never heard.
I love the stories told, the articles shared, the inspirational quotes, the activism. I love being exposed to people who live life differently than me, I love the ease of being able to share bits and pieces of myself and my story with you all.
It’s not perfect, and it’s definitely time-consuming, but I really do see social media as a way to love people well. To me, it’s my ministry! I use it to pray for people all the time and to check up on people all the time, and I try to keep things positive yet transparent enough to let y’all know I’m real and have struggles.
So, even during this crazy time, I still love this, and other platforms that I’m on. In part, because I never forget that on the other side of this computer or phone is another human reading, liking, commenting or just looking, and they have every right to be seen and heard and loved! My deepest hope is that each of you feels this from me.
So exactly one month ago, I launched a short organic marketing campaign for my book. The object of the campaign was to sell 35 books for my 35th birthday! I set out hoping I would make my goal but not quite sure if I would or not.
I did this whole thing scared and unsure of myself, but I am more confident in my abilities and more sure of myself now more than ever! I know that what I have to say is important and that people will listen to what I have to say if I ask them.
Well, I asked and let me say this, my people showed up and showed out! All I did was share my goal, share my heart, and people bought a book just to be a part of what I was doing. The support was more than I imagined, and I am grateful!
The final count was 53 books sold in one week! And I was overwhelmed by the support of everyone who made this dream of mine come true. I just wanted to say thank you for your help. And if you’re able to grab a copy of my book, you can go to Amazon and grab one! Also, if you’ve already read it, please go and review it. Thanks again!
It’s late; I can’t sleep yet again… this time I think it’s self-inflicted though, I drank an energy drink to make it through my Usborne Book Consultant launch party and then was excited from the said party so now I can’t sleep. I’m asking Jesus what he wants me to do, so here I am writing this to you.
Jesus loves you! It sounds like a cliche because people say it so often in an effortless way, but don’t let that negate the fact that it’s true! He loves you enough to have willingly gone to the cross for you just in case you decided to believe in Him! He had no certainty you or I would choose to believe in him, yet He did it anyway! That’s the kind of love I was looking for, the type of love that wouldn’t hurt me, the kind of love that allowed me to make mistakes, and loved me through them, and that’s the kind of love He gives!
Jesus, walked this earth and lived a sinless life, he NEVER did anything wrong, then He chose to die on the cross, a death we should have died, he could have easily said anything but chose to keep quiet. Only to be resurrected three days later, because of His innocence defeating death and hell, all so that we could have eternal life and a relationship with His Father, GOD(See the following books of the Bible: Matthew, Mark, Luke, John)!
His love IS real! If you believe that and believe the above (The Gospel), you are saved. It’s the faith in what Jesus did on the cross that saves us, nothing more and nothing less! Our salvation comes from the grace that is The Gospel, and if we reflect on it, we will continuously be reminded of His love for us (see Ephesians 2:8).
I just wanted to remind you that there is someone who loves you unconditionally, and his name is Jesus!