One Big Step Forward

Today I had the opportunity to reconnect with a friend whom I haven’t had the chance to connect with for almost a year. We’ve seen each other in passing but we haven’t had the chance to stop and talk. And although we didn’t talk for a long time (she was at work) we did get to embrace and that was one big step forward! It was the kind of embrace that you never wanted to come out of, that brought tears to your eyes with happiness and joy, excitement and fear… an embrace that only happens between true friends and family.

I don’t know what our friendship is gonna be like for us in the future but I do know that we can go forward from here and that’s all the really matters. It might not be the same as it once was but then again no friendship should ever stay the same. It should be able to grow; evolve with time if you will.

Things are not the same and that’s okay I’m just glad we are at this point in our friendship where we can stop and chat for a minute and have a sweet embrace where we know everything the other person is feeling. God is good and He has answered my prayers. I have received my miracle and He deserves all the glory and all the praise. His love is real and He heard my cries and answered them (in HIS time of course).

So Thank you Jesus for listening to my prayers and for bringing me and my friend together again if only for a little while. My life hasn’t been the same without her and you knew it. I am so grateful that you love me enough to move on my behalf. Thank you, thank you, AMEN!

The haze has been lifted…

Okay so this weekend was a really awesome time of creativity. I did just about everything but dance… I hope you enjoy what I’ve created as much as I enjoyed making them.

These are the bows I hand made with my friend Sally's help

A painting I made for my friend

just a random picture I painted

I also wrote a little something…

I Want The World To Know

I want the world to know that you live.

I want the world to look at my life and see you.

I want the world to know that you died for them

and that you sent me to tell them about your love.

I want the world to know that your love for them is

an everlasting love that will never fade away

like our love sometimes does.

I want the world to know that you knew and created

them even before they were born and that you dont

make mistakes.

I want the world to know that you see everything

and that you are always there.

I want the world to know that just like you live in me

you can live in them.

I want the world to know that you live!

I also tinkered around on my violin and even recorded it so if you are near and would like to hear it let me know. It was pretty relaxing to let the haze lift spend some time with Jesus and create a few things. I highly recommend it to everyone!

If you liked the bows above go to www.thepinkbanana.net and check them out!

Creative Haze

I am currently in a creative haze. It’s actually not what it sounds like.  I am actually pining away to be creative so much so that its causing a haze of pent-up creativity to produce this slowed version of my life around me. I think it’s trying to slow me down enough to find the time to let it all out. I want to dance, I want to paint, I want to write but where is the time? I’ve had time but I have used it on other things however this weekend I will be making time for my creativity to flourish! I will paint and I will dance and it will be a joyous occasion. I might even fiddle around on my violin! I’m ready and I am not gonna let my time be wasted on anything but creativity! I’ll post what comes forth from my creative haze so until next time!

FREEEEEEEDOOOOOMMMMMM

It’s exhausting! But it’s totally worth it. Tonight I experienced a freedom like none other… no really I did. The Lord has opened the box the enemy has kept me in and He told me in love that it was time for me to go and set others free! I don’t know how or when but I do know that NO WEAPON FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER!

Therefore I am free to use the authority the Lord has given me to set those who I will come into contact free… It’s like I’m a brand new person and I am excited to share my new me with people. It may happen sooner than I realize but I know that He has prepared me for such a time as this and it is my job as His servant to obey!

Freedom, it’s just the first taste and my mind is already racing I can only imagine what my life is going to be like when I experience the whole thing. Its gonna be a long road ahead but I will NOT go back in that box nor will I focus on the mirage that the enemy had me staring at all this time. Instead I will hold my head up high and know that because the Lord lives inside of me I CAN DO ANYTHING! Freedom, it’s something worth fighting for and I’m ready who’s with me?

Road Trip Recap!

Here are a few pictures from a road trip that me and my dear husband went on. We went to South Carolina to meet my aunt Wilma and then we went up to Atlantic City, New Jersey! It was a wonderful time spent together learning about family and each other. I hope you enjoy what you see… until next time…

HE knows what I need

There has been so many things going on in my life and all the while He has known what I needed. He knew that I needed to be in contact with my family and allowed me to go on an awesome road trip with my aunt Wilma and the rest of her family whom I hadn’t seen since I was like 5.  He also knew that I needed some really good hang out time with friends and I have gotten that and much more. I got to spend the day with my sorority sisters and go wedding dress shopping! It was so awesome to see the transformation on my sister’s face when she came out with those dresses on. It was such a special moment and He knew how honored I was to be apart of it. I have also had a couple of game nights with friends which is always fun and many coffee dates with others. There have been numerous Facebook conversations with far away friends and text messages with those needing prayer and advice.

It’s in those little things that He shows me how He’s using me. I may not think it’s much at first but if I just sit back for a moment and think about it I would realize how important it is. I mean it makes my day to get an email from an old friend or a text message from someone just saying, “hello I was thinking about you.”  So why should my efforts be any less important.  I’m not trying to toot my own horn or anything like that I am just realizing that I tend to put less importance on the things that I do for others even though it’s the same things I would praise them for doing and God is just opening my eyes to see that its okay for me to praise my self every once in a while.

He knows that I need some grade A quality time with my husband and I have gotten nothing but the best time with him. We sit up and talk to each other about whatever we feel like talking about. We go for walks, we go to our favorite coffee place to read and talk. We play games together, we watch t.v. and movies together, we are becoming more aware of each others time and feelings and its been pretty amazing!

He knows that there are times when I need closure on some things and He is providing me with that slowly but surely. There are still many memories I would love to forget like the fact that today is someones birthday whom I wish to forget…  Even though I haven’t forgotten certain things yet He is there holding my head up cheering me on telling me that He loves me and He is right there beside me. He’s getting me through the tough times where I have to remember the person I use to be and He’s telling me that my testimony is valuable to the advancement of His kingdom.

He’s allowing me to pray through some things because He knows exactly what I need and when I need it and He also knows what I don’t need and how I will thank Him for it later like I always do. He is in control of everything therefore He will make all things work together for my good and give me exactly what I need because HIS LOVE IS REAL and at the end of the day that’s all that matters!

God is sooooo Good!!

Today I had the amazing once in a lifetime opportunity to watch a friend of mine and her husband bring home their little baby girl that they recently adopted from Ethiopia! It was one of the best moments of my life. And to see that little girl (her name is Mercy) cling to her daddy was so precious to me. It was almost like I could see the comfort she got from holding on to him for dear life. It was as if the Lord was whispering in her ear, “this is your daddy and he’ll always be right here. You don’t ever have to worry about being alone again.  I have given you a new family now.” It was something mighty precious to watch and it was definitely an answered prayer and one of the greatest praise reports I’ve had the opportunity of hearing. God is so good and I know that His love IS real and always will be!

a happy family

Kelly Mercy and Jeremy Bullock

We also had family breakfast today which is a little tradition that me and my husband started when we moved into our house. Pretty much we get together with a whole bunch of our friends from church whom are all like family (hence the name) at our house and they bring over their favorite thing to eat for breakfast and we cook it all at the house and then just have one big feast… it’s cool to be apart of, very hectic but the fellowship is definitely worth it. As I was sitting in the room just watching everyone interact with one another I realized that I am one of the luckiest people I know. I have a good amount of people in my life who love me and don’t mind coming to hang out with me and my husband and really that is all I need in my life. Of course besides God but that’s always a given. I am blessed and for that I say THANK YOU LORD!