Fasting Saved Our Lives

Yesterday was a big day, our new church building was being dedicated so I decided to fast as part of the consecration. It was kind of a last minute decision the night before but I’m so glad I listened to that tiny urging that told me to do it. 

The day went by like any other day, except for I got to spend some great quality time with my best friend and paint my nails on my lunch break as part of my Spring Break Fun! I also spent some really good time with Jesus reading Psalm 34 and just meditating on His word.

When I got off of work, I went to get Kobi like I normally do, William went home to let Hannah out. By the time I got home all we had to do was grab some water for Kobi’s bottle, grab my Bible and notebook and hit the road…

I was driving so William could finish up some work he was doing and we were off. Even though I wanted to talk to William I was trying to be quiet so instead  I thought about how great worshipping the Lord together was going to be and I was in full expectation for what the Lord was going to do! I recalled my prayer from earlier where I prayed that I would fear the Lord but not His word or promises! 

And that’s when it happened. A two trailer FedEx truck began to creep into my lane. At first I didn’t think too much about it, because big trucks tend to ride the line so I began to slow down and then he kept coming over, I tried to honk my horn and brake even more, the only problem was we were on the highway going 70 miles an hour. So I inevitably swung out of control, and ended up in the median! 

William immediately got out once we were stopped, checked us and the car and then went to go check on the other driver, who had  stopped about 100 yards ahead and got out. Kobi who had been sleeping didn’t appreciate her nap being interrupted and began to fuss. I stayed calm and just began to thank Jesus for watching over us, for His angels making sure that we didn’t hit the back tires of the truck, and that there wasn’t any one else behind us in that lane at that moment, and of course that we were all okay! Tears definitely began to flow from relief and gratitude. That poor driver was wrecked emotionally. He came to apologize and seemed very upset and concerned especially when he found out Kobi was in the car. He and William checked the car once over made sure we were okay and we went about our business to church. We blessed that man, told him thank you for stopping, and as we were leaving I said an extra prayer for him. He did give us his information just in case but there was no need for that. 

Of course I was a little shaken up, so William drove the rest of the way to church, I was a little sore once my body relaxed from the pure shock but it’s really nothing a little ibuprofen and stretching won’t fix. We had our Pastor pray for us before we made the trek home and relief, peace, and gratitude fell and I feel fearless, and my aniexty (those little things that I was stressing about) are gone. I just want to glorify God and live! 

I do believe that my fasting played a role in us walking away uninjured, we didn’t just dedicate a building, we dedicated ourselves as the church to do all that God has called us to do, and all that The Lord has planned for us is going to require us to walk confidently in the Lord, trusting whole heartedly in His word and promises and leaving fear by the wayside. There’s a new motivation to live out my purpose; our purpose as a family and that’s exactly what I (we) plan on doing.

Stay Blessed! 

Terri 

Happy First Birthday, Kobi!

Y’all we made it! Kobi is officially one year old today!! I have so many emotions running through me but I haven’t had time to process them all because I was too busy getting everything together for her birthday celebration that we had tonight. But I’m sure things will come rushing in soon enough.

Kobi has grown so much over this pass year it amazes me every day! She is starting to walk a little bit with assistance, she loves eating real food (we had pancakes earlier today as a birthday tradition and she ate pasta and rolls, for dinner) She loves music, dancing to music or singing to the music. She knows how to clap, and she loves animals (we’re hoping to take her to the zoo tomorrow if the weather cooperates). She’s gone from a 2lbs. 11 oz. baby to a 24lbs. infant… she’s getting tall and she just wants to see everything and figure out how things work (we think she might be an engineer). She likes watching t.v and spending time with her daddy. Kobi loves to laugh and has such a big smile, Oh and she has two teeth now!! It’s so fun to hear her crunch on different foods.

Y’all my baby made it! Despite everything that happened to get her to this point we made it and I am so thankful and grateful to my God who kept her, and us! Thank you to each and every one of you who said a prayer, who brought food, who shared kind words, who rallied around us this past year. Thank you for your love and support and for cheering us on, you are loved and appreciated and I hope that each of you get to see Kobi one day in real life!

Here are a few pictures from her celebration!

Love Y’all,

Terri

We have a new President now what?

This morning as I was driving into work I found out who our next President Of The United States will be. Instead of being sad I thanked God for being in control of all things. I told Him I knew He wasn’t surprised by this outcome and I began to pray for Donald Trump. I prayed that He would have a heart transformation and that he would love his life accordingly. I prayed that he would be surrounded by a good counsel of people who know the Lord and have been discipled and who can speak and be heard by Mr. Trump. I prayed that the Lord would give him wisdom and revelation to do what needs to be done and I thanked God for the plan He has and for the continued protection that we have as His children.

I didn’t pray the whole way into work actually that prayer didn’t take more than ten minutes. I know the Lord heard me and hears my prayers and I know that it’s going to take a whole lot more people than just me to come into agreement for lives to be changed and so I encourage you all to say a prayer for President Elect Trump today and to remember to pray for him and all other government officials often. Let the peace that surpasses all understanding take over you, reach out and be intentional about loving each other and know that God’s got this under control!

In times of uncertainty as such, Jesus Christ is the only certainty we have. And for me that’s more than enough. Be blessed and remember His Love IS Real!
Terri

Kobi is right where she is suppose to be!

Today we had Kobi’s developmental NICU followup appointment in Nashville and I didn’t really know what to expect. But they weighed her and measured her and ran some tests. Now before I tell you what they said I have always thought that besides her weight Kobi was where she was suppose to be development wise. I don’t know if people just agreed with me because I’m her mom or if they really believed it… So technically Kobi is 3 months and 28 days old adjusted age so that’s what they were testing her skills at. 

Kobi was above average for her adjusted age and well within the average range for her chronological age, which means Kobi is exactly where she is suppose to be! The doctor said it had everything to do with how well William and I work with her but I know that our work is only a portion of the answer because the bigger part of why Kobi is doing so well is because God is a miracle worker and has kept and made sure Kobi was good every step of the way! 

He has made this little girl strong and smart and beautiful and kind and patient and joyful! He speaks to her and the Holy Spirit teaches her because we invite Him into our lives and give Him access to the things He needs in order to work and Kobi is no different. Every night we pray for her and ask the Lord to continue to speak to her, teach her and strengthen her and He has done just that and more! 

Kobi won’t have her next appointment for another six months and if she is doing well then her next appointment won’t be until she’s two! We are already praying and believing that Kobi will stay on course and continue to improve at the rate she is suppose to be at! Thank you all for your continued prayers and support! And when I buy more storage (it costs $100) I will upload the pictures we took of her from this visit!

Take A Moment

Take a moment to pray for and encourage someone this week. It’s hard out here and I’m sure someone could use a compliment or a coffee. Send an encouraging text message or call them just to say hello. Your efforts don’t have to be extravagant they just have to be sincere. 

Stay blessed y’all!! 

Terri

I am black and my life matters!!

My heart is heavy. It’s been that way off and on for a while. Somedays I can’t even do anything but exist and pray for the strength to get through the day. I’m not talking about Kiwi Hannah although I miss her. I’m talking about the killing of unarmed black people going on all across the country! I haven’t seen a video since Tamir Rice because if I continued to watch every murder it just wouldn’t be good for my sanity. 

After Sandra Bland was killed for a turn signal I was scared to drive, like I didn’t want to be in a car by myself. I made sure I followed all traffic laws I wouldn’t even go 5 over the speed limit for fear of being pulled over even though those around me were going at least 10 over the speed limit, but I knew that if they got pulled over it would just be a ticket and if I got pulled over it could be way more than that. The police department where I live has done a great job and has never given me a reason to doubt them but these days all it takes is one bad officer to end my life and change the life of my family forever.

I’m pretty sure that somewhere in the last few years I have begun to use my white husband’s privilege as a safety net unbeknownst to him. He doesn’t say anything special or demand certain treatment but alas his mere existence buys me another day of life! Now I know that he is not the giver of life and really Jesus is the one that has my days numbered but I have come to feel like when I’m with my husband I get a pass to live one more day!

 That makes me sad because I know that my brothers, my sister, my cousin, my best friends and even my mom aren’t safe! They don’t have any white’s privilege readily available. And the fact that my husband’s skin color protects me makes me sick! He is supposed to be my protector yes, but he shouldn’t have to protect me from my skin color! 

My daughter looks racially ambiguous now, but what will she look like when she’s older? I would hope it wouldn’t matter but somehow I know it still will matter when she’s older. How do I begin to form the words to explain to her why she will need to be a little more careful than her other friends when going out etc… I know I have some years to find the words but I’d much rather spend that time making memories with her instead of trying to explain the world we live in to her. I don’t want her to live in fear but she will be made aware of why things are the way they are.

It’s hard to continue to believe in our justice system when justice is the last thing to be served/given in past situations like Eric Garner and Freddie Gray amongst others. It’s hard to be a Christian who follows Jesus and balance all the feelings that flood my mind when another unarmed black person has died by the hands of a police officer. It’s so complicated. Because I always think that could have been me or someone I love! I am praying that in the Alton Sterling and now the Philando Castile cases justice will be served. I’m also praying for their families.

I am an educated black Christian woman and I am here to say that #blacklivesmatter! My life and the life of my family is not worth less than anyone else’s and it’s time people understood that! And of course all lives matter because the vast majority are still alive to keep telling us that so please spare me the comparisons.

I didn’t write this to start a fight or argue and I may or may not acknowledge comments. I wrote this to vent, to relieve the burden that is at times crushing, I did this to say that I am black and my life matters! 

Thanks for reading and please continue to pray for the families of those who have been killed by the hands of police officers.

Memorial Day is not always happy

As a veteran I find Memorial Day to be a time to reflect on those soldiers who lost their lives during combat. I also see it as a time where soldiers can spend extra time with their families, which is so important especially when getting ready for deployments and long training cycles! It’s also a time where people get together and party, after all it’s usually a day where people don’t have to go to work. 

I know someone who lost their life during combat and I know plenty of soldiers who lost someone they knew in combat as well. So as you are out celebrating today enjoy yourself but please remember the real reason for Memorial Day and while you are at it say a prayer for the families of those who lost their lives not just today but often! And if you see a soldier or know a soldier please don’t tell them Happy Memorial Day, because they could be grieving and reflecting on their fallen comrades, which isn’t at all happy! 

If you want to thank a soldier go ahead but remember you can also thank them every other day of the year as well. There doesn’t need to be a special reason to say thank you! 

memorial day flags

picture from healthwit.com via Google