Life Since Graduation

Exactly a month a go today I graduated with my Master’s in Communications from Austin Peay State University. I never wrote anything on the blog on that particular day because I was too busy enjoying my family and friends! Now, a month later I have so much free time, it’s incredible! 

I love being able to cook dinner and not feel rushed, I can let Kobi come up and ask to read her a book at anytime, and actually read it more than once, because I have time! I love running errands with her, and playing with her outside! It’s been great to be able to do laundry the same day, and help clean the kitchen and not just Kobi’s botttles. I love having time to go on date nights with William and really enjoy our time and it not be rushed because I have homework due the next day or chapters to read! I mean we just went on a family vacation to the beach and did absolutely nothing, because we needed a break and it was marvelous!! 

Life since graduation has been absolutely wonderful! It’s still hard, and I’m still tired, but now it’s because I stayed up too late watching the movie Matilda ( true story) and not because I was finishing a paper or submitting a quiz! Y’all freedom feels good! Thank you for all your prayers and support while I was in school, I’m grateful and glad to be done! 

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A New Life

After a pain so deep I thought it would kill me, I found new life! When Kiwi took her last few breaths on this side of heaven it completely ruined me. The anguish I felt was unlike anything I’d ever felt before, and am in no hurry to feel again. It was a struggle just to breathe, let alone eat or get out of bed! I won’t say sleep, for once I did fall asleep I slept to pass the day. I cried until I couldn’t cry anymore, it was one of those gut wrenching cries that you feel in the pit of your stomach! 

At some point, about 3 months later I decided that it was time to do something, so I found work  to keep my mind busy, then decided it was time to go to grad school and a year to the day of Kiwi’s first birthday, I found out I was pregnant with her little sister, Kobi! Although, there was a new life to grow, I was petrified. The saga that was bedrest began, grad school got put on hold,  and I did absolutely everything I could to keep Kobi growing. However, little miss Kobi decided she wanted to come closer to her sister’s original due date and made her appearance in February! We finally had a baby on this side of heaven to take care of, and to love!!

Time in the NICU made things go very slowly at first, days began to run together, and I couldn’t wait until William got off so we could go for our visits. All I ever wanted to do was be with our new baby! We were able to finally bring her home and things began to pick up! I spent all my time with her, went back to grad school, and stayed home with her as long as we could afford to. 

Kobi grew and grew and grew some more!! Her first birthday came and we celebrated her life and all that God has planned for her! It truly was a joyous occasion. We have often joked that we got to celebrate keeping her alive, cause it really is a huge accomplishment, but now as she is beginning to walk, and her personality is beginning to show itself, and she’s becoming more independent, I see that she has kept ME alive! 

She has given me a new life! One full of joy and frustration and gratefulness even at two in the morning! Kobi literally makes me feel better just by holding her, and she gives me the energy and “want to” that I need to get stuff done.  I want her to see a positive example of what marriage is like. I want to make sure that she is taken care of, not just now but when we (her parents) are long gone! I want her to know the voice of Jesus, the love of God and the comfort and teachings of the Holy Spirit. I want her to know that her prayers are heard and answered according to His will! I want her to love people, travel and good food! I want her to know that her father and I are a safe place and I want to show her unconditional love. It’s that want I have for her that keeps me alive and has given me a new life! 

People have always said, “a baby changes everything” and they are absolutely right, but I think most people focus on the long nights, the dirty diapers, the privacy issues, and the overall change in schedules. They never talk about the joy you feel at each milestone accomplished, even if it is just pooping, or getting a full nights sleep. Or better yet, the cooing, and the smiles. That clapping and the laughing. My favorite thing to do is to watch Kobi try to figure out how something works! I can see the wonder and curiosity in her eyes and it’s such a wonderful feeling. I love teaching her new things and finding moments to just love on her, and seeing her play with her daddy, consistently melts my heart because she adores him!! Those are the things that have made the changes so worth it!

This new life is not quite what I expected but I am loving every moment of it and am so grateful to have each and every experience to learn and continue to grow.

On This Day

At this very moment, I had a few words with Cookie as the music started to play and everyone began walking in to take their places on the stage and I couldn’t stop crying because I couldn’t believe that I was finally getting married and having a real wedding to boot! Getting married was something I had always dreamed about but never really saw it modeled, so I didn’t think it was possible, but then I met Jesus and He gave me the desires of my heart as I walked in to the room and professsed my love for you in front of our closest friends and family.  The ceremony ended with our first kiss, but that was just the beginning! We danced, I fell, we visited with our friends, we ate a little, and we helped clean up too, we celebrated becoming one and I am so grateful to you for making me your wife! 

On This Day

8 years later, William, I want to say thank you for loving me, and for fighting for our marriage! Thank you for being the best husband you know how to be and for your continued efforts to be even better! We have been through so much in these eight years and yet I still feel like I  have barely scratched the surface to your heart. William, you are an amazing, complicated, sensitive man and I promise to always put in the effort it takes to love you better and love you just the way you are! I love you today and always and am truly honored to be your wife!! Happy Anniversary my love!! I am glad to be on this grand Jesus adventure with you!! 

Happy First Birthday, Kobi!

Y’all we made it! Kobi is officially one year old today!! I have so many emotions running through me but I haven’t had time to process them all because I was too busy getting everything together for her birthday celebration that we had tonight. But I’m sure things will come rushing in soon enough.

Kobi has grown so much over this pass year it amazes me every day! She is starting to walk a little bit with assistance, she loves eating real food (we had pancakes earlier today as a birthday tradition and she ate pasta and rolls, for dinner) She loves music, dancing to music or singing to the music. She knows how to clap, and she loves animals (we’re hoping to take her to the zoo tomorrow if the weather cooperates). She’s gone from a 2lbs. 11 oz. baby to a 24lbs. infant… she’s getting tall and she just wants to see everything and figure out how things work (we think she might be an engineer). She likes watching t.v and spending time with her daddy. Kobi loves to laugh and has such a big smile, Oh and she has two teeth now!! It’s so fun to hear her crunch on different foods.

Y’all my baby made it! Despite everything that happened to get her to this point we made it and I am so thankful and grateful to my God who kept her, and us! Thank you to each and every one of you who said a prayer, who brought food, who shared kind words, who rallied around us this past year. Thank you for your love and support and for cheering us on, you are loved and appreciated and I hope that each of you get to see Kobi one day in real life!

Here are a few pictures from her celebration!

Love Y’all,

Terri

My 2016 was one to remember 

So a lot of people are so ready for 2017 because their 2016 wasn’t so good but my 2016 was pretty awesome so I wanted to write about it. We were able to welcome our beautiful daughter Katherine Obadiah into this world (albeit a few months early). We got to experience NICU life, it wasn’t the most exciting but it definitely taught us a lot about ourselves, each other and our God. We found a new church that we love, and our marriage has improved exponentially! 

I’m a few classes away from graduating with my Master’s Degree. I found a job that helped contribute to the house hold. We found a wonderful person to take care of Kobi for us while we both have to work and she’s become a friend and a huge part of Kobi’s life! I was able to spend six months at home with Kobi, we were able to go to Cali for a wedding, Ohio for the Fourth of July, and Nevada for Christmas! Not to mention Kobi was able to see her uncles, aunt and cousins for Thanksgiving! 

Just seeing Kobi grow and learn has been so worth it! Learning to communicate effectively with William has been great! It hasn’t always been easy or fun but as we learn, things gets better and we’ve definitely given each other more grace and learned to value each other. 

Jesus allowed us to maintain great friendships this year and establish new ones and we were given a car right when we needed it. We both learned what makes us happy and what we need to do in 2017 to maintain. And we are genuinely excited to see what the Lord is going to do with us and through us in this coming year! 

If you’re 2016 didn’t turn out so well. My prayer is that  2017 will be that much better and those things that were taken from you would be restored back to you in this new year!

Our Christmas Family Vacation!

We have celebrated Christmas for the last few years with some great friends but this year they moved across the country and so we were left with a dilemma… What to do for Christmas? After talking it over and checking the budget we decided at the last minute to spend Christmas in Las Vegas with said friends and bonus we had my mom come up so she could finally meet Kobi! It was such a wonderful and much needed time away and time with family! Oh and I got to see one of my oldest friends after 10 years too! We went to the Hoover Dam, and to Red Rock Canyon, and ate really great food all cooked by Holly herself!

Kobi’s first Christmas was great! We snuggled in bed then she sat and listened to her daddy read the Bible explaining the Christmas story and she loved all the paper and actually played with a few toys! She was super exhausted after opening most everything but definitely needed food and a nap before continuing. William and I had a few surprises for each other which was nice because we already knew what we wanted. We decided to remember Kiwi by wearing matching Christmas socks because it’s something simple and we can continue to do that for years to come. And the highlight was seeing my mom interact with Kobi!! It’s been a long time coming and it was definitely my Christmas Miracle!! I hope each of you reading this had a wonderful Christmas celebration. Thanks for your continued reading!

~Terri

Here’s a link to pictures of our adventure!

Big Sister Day!!

Today Kiwi Hannah would have been two years old!! It’s been the hardest when I see William playing with Kobi and I know there should be a toddler there playing with them… But instead of making today a sad day the whole day… We decided that today and every September 21st would be Big Sister Day! William actually came up with the idea and Kobi made sure to keep her “Lil’ Sister” onesie clean all day!!

 Anyway we decided that we would do things that we wanted to do in order to celebrate Kiwi with the option to do things she would like doing as well… This year we had lunch with friends, got pedicures, spent time playing at home, and we had cupcakes!! It was so much fun and Kobi was tuckered out at the end of it all!  We had a wonderful time together as a family and I actually am looking forward to future celebrations… And although I miss Kiwi Hannah terribly, today made it not hurt as bad… After all she’s with Jesus and there’s no better place to be! So Happy Big Sister Day everyone and Happy Birthday Kiwi!! Thanks for the love and support and prayers. It’s been hard but we’re making it!