A New Life

After a pain so deep I thought it would kill me, I found new life! When Kiwi took her last few breaths on this side of heaven it completely ruined me. The anguish I felt was unlike anything I’d ever felt before, and am in no hurry to feel again. It was a struggle just to breathe, let alone eat or get out of bed! I won’t say sleep, for once I did fall asleep I slept to pass the day. I cried until I couldn’t cry anymore, it was one of those gut wrenching cries that you feel in the pit of your stomach! 

At some point, about 3 months later I decided that it was time to do something, so I found work  to keep my mind busy, then decided it was time to go to grad school and a year to the day of Kiwi’s first birthday, I found out I was pregnant with her little sister, Kobi! Although, there was a new life to grow, I was petrified. The saga that was bedrest began, grad school got put on hold,  and I did absolutely everything I could to keep Kobi growing. However, little miss Kobi decided she wanted to come closer to her sister’s original due date and made her appearance in February! We finally had a baby on this side of heaven to take care of, and to love!!

Time in the NICU made things go very slowly at first, days began to run together, and I couldn’t wait until William got off so we could go for our visits. All I ever wanted to do was be with our new baby! We were able to finally bring her home and things began to pick up! I spent all my time with her, went back to grad school, and stayed home with her as long as we could afford to. 

Kobi grew and grew and grew some more!! Her first birthday came and we celebrated her life and all that God has planned for her! It truly was a joyous occasion. We have often joked that we got to celebrate keeping her alive, cause it really is a huge accomplishment, but now as she is beginning to walk, and her personality is beginning to show itself, and she’s becoming more independent, I see that she has kept ME alive! 

She has given me a new life! One full of joy and frustration and gratefulness even at two in the morning! Kobi literally makes me feel better just by holding her, and she gives me the energy and “want to” that I need to get stuff done.  I want her to see a positive example of what marriage is like. I want to make sure that she is taken care of, not just now but when we (her parents) are long gone! I want her to know the voice of Jesus, the love of God and the comfort and teachings of the Holy Spirit. I want her to know that her prayers are heard and answered according to His will! I want her to love people, travel and good food! I want her to know that her father and I are a safe place and I want to show her unconditional love. It’s that want I have for her that keeps me alive and has given me a new life! 

People have always said, “a baby changes everything” and they are absolutely right, but I think most people focus on the long nights, the dirty diapers, the privacy issues, and the overall change in schedules. They never talk about the joy you feel at each milestone accomplished, even if it is just pooping, or getting a full nights sleep. Or better yet, the cooing, and the smiles. That clapping and the laughing. My favorite thing to do is to watch Kobi try to figure out how something works! I can see the wonder and curiosity in her eyes and it’s such a wonderful feeling. I love teaching her new things and finding moments to just love on her, and seeing her play with her daddy, consistently melts my heart because she adores him!! Those are the things that have made the changes so worth it!

This new life is not quite what I expected but I am loving every moment of it and am so grateful to have each and every experience to learn and continue to grow.

2014 in review

Thank you all for stopping by to show me some love!! I am honored that people in a total of 99 countries have read my blog!! It makes me a bit speechless to think about it! But Thanks again, and I’ll try and post a bit more regularly in the 2015!! Happy New Year to you all!

Here’s an excerpt:

A New York City subway train holds 1,200 people. This blog was viewed about 5,900 times in 2014. If it were a NYC subway train, it would take about 5 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.

Make A Note Monday: What Teachers Make By Taylor Mali

I don’t know if you all know this but I wanted to be a teacher when I was younger. Specifically a hearing impaired teacher, but then we moved away and all of a sudden there were no more hearing impaired students in my classes or to help out. I even started my college career majoring in Education K-6 I wanted to teach kindergarten… but then something changed and I got a chance to see behind the curtain of what really goes on and I didn’t like it… so I left… but that has never changed my passion for teaching or the respect that I have always had for teachers…

Here is a fun meme/comic/story that my husband found and sent to me… It almost made me tear up with gratitude for those who teach and who have made me the woman I am today… Enjoy but be aware there are two occasions towards the end that contain a not so nice picture and a not so nice word…

 

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Fifty Years Ago Today

Fifty years ago today on August 28th 1963 Dr Martin Luther King gave his famous “I Have A Dream” speech during the March on Washington. It was a pretty big deal and definitely a time of liberation for a people group that had otherwise been oppressed. Today I just wanted to express my heart felt gratitude for what took place fifty years ago today and say thank you to all of those men and women who came before me who stood up for what was right when no one else would stand and who really did make it to where, “little black boys and girls will hold hands with little white boys and girls.” My husband and I would not be here if things had not changed. And now we can live our lives knowing that we are the next fifty years from today… So thank you and God Bless!

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The BIG 100 & A Giveaway!

 

Today I was notified that I got my 100th follower on this here blog!!! I am so excited, so grateful and humbled by all of you that I decided to do something I’ve never done before in order to say thank you… I shot a video and am doing a giveaway to say thank you!! 

All you need to do is leave a comment on what it is that you like about the blog and the email address that you want to be contacted at. That’s it!! I am going to try and enter all the names into a raffle database and pick the winner at random and if that doesn’t work I will enter each name into a hat and let my husband pick the winner at random… bare with me because I’m still new at all this giveaway stuff but am so excited to be expanding my blog and either way someone will be receiving something from me!!!

Thanks so much again to all of you that follow this blog. It is my greatest hope that you can feel God’s love for you and realize that His love for you IS real!! He’ll always love you no matter what you do or where you go, it doesn’t matter… Thanks again and I hope you all keep coming back… and just in case anyone was wondering YES this giveaway is open to those of you who are in other countries!!! After all you follow my blog too!!! Thanks and many Blessings.

Terri

Thankful For My Husband

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Today I am most thankful for my husband! We’ve only been married for 3.5 years but these years have truly been the best years of my life. My William (aka Bill to everyone else) is one of the most hardworking men I know yet is so kind and gentle and sensitive when he needs to be! He definitely is everything I’ve always wanted but never thought I’d get; a true gift from God!!

Today as we are driving back from Ft Myers Beach (we got to see some great friends there) I realized just how much I love him and am truly grateful for him and our marriage! Thank You Jesus for my husband William! And Thank You William for always striving to be the man God has made you to be!! I love you and am so honored to be your wife!!

Thankful For Friends

Well seeing as how this month is Thanksgiving in the United States and a lot of people are using this time to challenge themselves to be grateful I wanted to challenge myself by writing about what I am thankful for… And today I am thankful for great friends! I truly am surrounded by friends who are always real with me, loving, giving, caring, kind, and sacrificial! Thank you so much for being my friend!!

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Of course there’s more but I couldn’t find all the pictures in the time I had!! But you know who you are!! Love Love Love You All!!