Exactly a month a go today I graduated with my Master’s in Communications from Austin Peay State University. I never wrote anything on the blog on that particular day because I was too busy enjoying my family and friends! Now, a month later I have so much free time, it’s incredible!
I love being able to cook dinner and not feel rushed, I can let Kobi come up and ask to read her a book at anytime, and actually read it more than once, because I have time! I love running errands with her, and playing with her outside! It’s been great to be able to do laundry the same day, and help clean the kitchen and not just Kobi’s botttles. I love having time to go on date nights with William and really enjoy our time and it not be rushed because I have homework due the next day or chapters to read! I mean we just went on a family vacation to the beach and did absolutely nothing, because we needed a break and it was marvelous!!
Life since graduation has been absolutely wonderful! It’s still hard, and I’m still tired, but now it’s because I stayed up too late watching the movie Matilda ( true story) and not because I was finishing a paper or submitting a quiz! Y’all freedom feels good! Thank you for all your prayers and support while I was in school, I’m grateful and glad to be done!
I’m back! I know it’s been quite sometime…. the last time I wrote you all I was trying to find something extra cool to do in Jersey on my way to and from India. Well needless to say I had a great time in India, and ended up seeing the sights in Manhattan instead of Jersey. I also graduated from Austin Peay State University with a Bachelors of Science in Communications with a concentration in Public Relations. But that’s not what has brought me back…
During the summer June 10th to be exact I found out I was pregnant to my delight. If anyone has followed me for any time you know the struggle it has been for me and my husband to conceive and how painful mother’s day has been for me. So to say that I was beyond ecstatic is quite the understatement. I went to India in July fully pregnant with confidence that the Lord would protect both me and my baby and He did! I graduated in August with my baby present under my robe! And in September I finally felt the little flutters of movement I had been waiting for! But even that is not what I’m back to talk about…
See, just a few short days ago Sunday September 21st at 5:34 am I gave birth to my daughter at only 18 weeks old. She was 8 oz and 8.5 inches long. We decided to name her Kiwi Hannah Harding because we called her Kiwi every night as we prayed for our baby, at the time we didn’t know what we were having and we still didn’t know until we had her that morning. She came too early because I have found out that I have what is known as an incompetent cervix (I dilated without any symptoms or pain). Therefore, no cervix=nothing to keep baby in… thereby producing a much too early delivery.
And that is why I’m back! Even in my heartache, brokenness, and grief I know that God is good and His love IS real! It doesn’t mean that I’m not mad or that I don’t have tons of questions that still may never get answered but I had to come back in my time of grief to give God the honor and glory He still deserves even in my darkest hour!
So prepare yourselves, I’ll be blogging more often about my long journey to surviving this devastation… Thank you for continuing to read this blog even in my absence and thank you for your continued prayers for me and my family during this horrific time in our lives. I’ll try to also blog about the good times as well…
This is finals week. I just finished writing my research paper for my Values, Attitudes and Ethics in Pop Culture class (I did it on the influences on perception according to Dawson’s Creek characters). That’s my all time favorite television show and I will probably binge watch the series on the few days that I have off before I start summer classes next week. I wanted to take a quick study break to write this for one to stay consistent and two I just needed a quick break before I review one last time for my only final tomorrow. I am very thankful for my husband who helped me study before I took this break and am hopeful that I will retain all that I have learned and make an A in the class.
The next couple of months may be hectic because like I mentioned before I will be taking summer classes as well as an internship and then going to India only to come back and graduate!! I will try my best to write at least every monday but if that doesn’t happen please know that I will be back… I hope all is well with you as you read this and if you are taking finals I hope you do well on them.
So apparently when I go on vacation it’s really hard to keep up with the days… And therefore blogs end up late… Please excuse my tardiness on this blog and any other blog for the remainder of the week but I have traveled many miles to be with my cousin who will be graduating with her Masters degree in family and marriage counseling later today!!
YAY NICHOLE I’M SO PROUD OF YOU!!! JOB WELL DONE!!!
Any-who… My favorite book is East of Eden by John Steinbeck! I won’t ruin it by telling you the plot but it was sure a wonderful read many years ago. I can’t remember if it was for school or a part of Oprah’s book club that got me to read it but I’m glad I did!